I woke up this morning feeling distant from God. Actually I spent yesterday feeling the same. My mind went back to the day before when I had gone "boldly before the throne of grace", reminding God of WHO HE SAYS HE IS (as though God needed reminded). I told Him He said He was in covenant with the one I was holding before Him (which He is), that He said He would never leave them (and He won't), and that if you really love someone that you have the ability to help and rescue, you would run to do that (and He does, yet in a way that it is for our good). Everything I said was true. There was only one problem. Instead of reminding God Who He says He is, I needed to remind myself of Who He is...
God has made great sacrifices to be in covenant with us. He has not left us helpless. He will never leave us or forsake us. Isaiah 54:10 says, "Though the mountains be shaken and the hills be removed, yet my unfailing love for you will not be shaken, nor my covenant of peace be removed", says the Lord, who has compassion on you." He hears us when we cry out to Him and rescues us from the enemy who is too strong for us. Yet it is in the desert where the distractions are removed and we recognize our intense need for His presence and His help.
This morning when I awoke, even though I repented yesterday, I knew I had wounded (grieved) the heart of God. When I said again I was sorry and asked for His forgiveness, I realized there was some unfinished business. His simple response was, "Who do YOU think I am - really?" He didn't want to hear platitudes; He wanted to hear what was really in my heart. The question wasn't even if I love Him. I knew it was deeper than that.
After all He has done for me, all of the bondage He has broken through, all of the deserts He has walked me out of - have I forgotten His warning in Deuteronomy 8: 11-14 "Beware lest you forget the Lord your God after you begin dwelling in the blessings of what He has done." (paraphrased)
GOD IS WHO HE SAYS HE IS. If anyone needs to be reminded of that, it's me - NOT HIM...end of conversation...that's the truth.